Lewis Hamilton has admitted that he underestimated simply how troublesome his remaining season with Mercedes could be from an emotional standpoint.
The seven-time world champion revealed at first of the yr that he could be leaving the German producer for Ferrari, ending what could have been a 12-year partnership.
Whereas it was hoped getting the information out early would permit Hamilton and Mercedes to place apart any future hypothesis and deal with delivering on monitor, the marketing campaign has been far more difficult than each of them anticipated.
And Hamilton has confessed forward of his remaining race weekend that from the second of what he stated was an “awkward” dialog with group boss Toto Wolff to inform him he was leaving, issues have proved to be tense.
“I feel in the end I anticipated it could be troublesome, however massively underestimated how troublesome it could be,” he stated.
“It was straining on the connection very early on. It took time for folks to get previous it.
“After which only for my very own self, it has been a really emotional yr for me. I feel I’ve not been at my finest in dealing with and coping with these feelings.”
Lewis Hamilton, Mercedes F1 W15
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Hamilton thinks that the dimensions of the difficulties he confronted in coping with issues this yr meant at instances that individuals noticed the worst of him.
“I feel this yr, and so a lot of you may have been right here my complete profession, so a few of you, I feel, you have all seen the worst of me and seen the perfect of me,” he stated.
“I am not going to apologise for both as a result of I am solely human and I do not all the time get it proper. I positively would say this yr’s been one of many worst when it comes to dealing with that from my aspect, which I will work on attempting to be higher at.
“However I hope the nice and the highs far outweigh the negatives and the way I’ve dealt with it or behaved.”
Whereas current outcomes haven’t been what he nor Mercedes wished, Hamilton says he’ll depart the group on Sunday solely with reminiscences of the highs.
“I simply keep in mind the nice instances,” he added. “I’ve constructed some unbelievable relationships.
“We have gone via [so much]. When you think about, whenever you’re going via a season along with so many individuals, you recognize, not solely on these race weekends the place you are driving the highs and lows collectively, however of their private lives, via marriages, via divorces, via lack of relations, via most cancers, via all kinds.
“You are going via these journeys with these folks. So it is a actually stunning journey you go on collectively. And being that it was so lengthy, the feelings run so deep.”
Talking about what the abiding reminiscence of his 246 races along with Mercedes could be, Hamilton singled out their win on the 2014 Bahrain GP.
“I feel it is the grins, once we’ve had the success,” he stated. “I feel it is these moments.
“I keep in mind one specific engineer [Aldo Costa] at our win in Australia [actually Bahrain] in 2014. I simply keep in mind him being in tears once we had been on the rostrum. It is these moments that I take with me. It is the feelings that we had in Silverstone this yr. It is all the nice bits.
“Naturally, you largely keep in mind the nice bits. I am simply extremely proud, but additionally simply so grateful to each single particular person, each which might be right here on the monitor, but additionally again on the manufacturing unit which have simply labored tirelessly and, you recognize, been supporting me for all these years from day one.”
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